Recalibrate my ship...

Assalaimulaikum...

Alhamdulilah,after had been struggling for the past few months,today I can said that I am able to move on again, however I am still in the healing process and of course the healing process will take some time.So, let's hope and pray that I am able to go through this trial.Maybe in the past I were not being a good person and maybe this trial just one of the reasons so that I am able to become the better person.

And right now, I just realized that lied to yourself was just the stupid thing that I ever done.I should not being a hypocrite girl by pretending that I am ok while actually I were not okay.But right now, I can said that I had already able to accept that I am not a normal girl anymore but this doesn't meant that I am not able to lead a normal life. Right now, I want to enjoy my life before it's too late.

I just moved the first step of my new life and hope this time everything going well.*Insya-Allah* And today before I started to pray I found this verses in my Al-Quran;

"Yang demikian itu kerana sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah suatu nikmat yang tlah diberikanNya kepada suatu kaum sehingga kaum itu mengubah apa yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri.Sungguh, Allah Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui"

(Al-Anfal:53)

I just felt so calm and happy after I recite that verses.Insya-Allah,I am sure that I am able to go through this trial. Like mom always said that Allah knows the best for you. And this trial is the best for you.

p/s:Today I just felt so grateful and relieved. For the last few months, today I were able to smile sincerely.

p/s2:Thank to those who concern about me. Insya-Allah, with all your support I will become a stronger girl than before. Thank to those who kept remind me my own advise to them which was Allah just want to test us and keep the faith to Him. Betullah manusia sering lupa kerana perkataan insan itu di dalam bahasa arab bermaksud pelupa.