The Bitter of Life

I back again.

It is almost 2 months, menghilang tanpa sebarang khabar di blog.

Well life is totally hectic and miserable this sem.

A lot of "bad" things happened. At 1 point I really want to give up.

I kinda hate myself now. 

I hate when Mr. heart does not want to listen to Mr. Brain.

Mr. Brain suggested to me to let it go but I do not know why Mr heart does not want to listen.

Life is busier as usual.

I hate this sem.

Lost in everything I do.

Seriously I lost my motivation and right now the only thing that work on  Mr Brain just keep pushing me. Pushing me to the end until  I just felt that it is so tired.

Tired because everything I do now is need a lot of struggle.

Struggle in everything.

At 1 point I asked to myself, is it this life that I really want?

I really hope 1 day of break. 1 day that allow me to think carefully what I want actually?